What if you can’t have the only thing you know you want?
Taylor Jenkins seems to spend her life wanting. A year out of university, she’s in a serious life-slump, scared to pursue her real passions. Mainly because chief among them is her overwhelming attraction to Ryan, her best friend Marcy’s boyfriend.
Then another man drops into her life – but he’s already dead. Taylor’s life is thrown into a tailspin when she discovers the body of a suicide victim on the bank of the river Thames. In the wake of this discovery, she’s forced to confront the other gaping absence in her life. Her mother took the same route out when Taylor was only sixteen, and she’s never really dealt with the affect it had on her.
So when Marcy goes on tour, leaving Taylor alone with Ryan in their shared flat, the simmering feeling she’s had since her grim find threatens to reach boiling point. Taylor and Ryan’s connection grows guiltily intense – but also more meaningful than she ever could have imagined. She has treacherous emotional terrain to navigate if she’s going to come to terms with her past, find her future – and discover if Ryan’s illicit love can help her find her serenity…