★★★ 3.5 Stars ★★★
I am a brother
I am a police detective
I am a contract killer
I don’t want to love
I don’t want to feel
I don’t want … EMPATHY.
They say some people are born with decreased activity in the front central lobe causing them a deficiency in empathy. Maybe that’s true about me but whether I was born this way or created in a moment of evil, empathy was something I didn’t possess until her green eyes met mine in the mirror and I couldn’t take her life.
I didn’t want to feel, didn’t want this woman in my life complicating how I lived but she was there at every turn. Sent to haunt me for my sins. Her light so bright she provoked a shadow from everyone she touched. When a job turns bad quickly altering my life forever I’m forced to feel. When nothing is making sense I’m forced to face truths I never would recover from. When life drowns you in its cruelty you don’t know which way the current will drag you or who you’ll become once you re-surface.
I was a daughter
I was a student
I was a victim
Did I have his love?
Did I make him feel?
Did I have his empathy?
When the actions of a soulless killer forces sorrow into my veins I never dreamed the man healing my wounds would be the one to leave the worst scar. His love would scar my soul. Scars are permanent; I will never feel the relief from them. Will I learn to live with them, remember why I have them and learn never to let him close enough to inflict more? Will I eventually cover them… like tattoos coating them with new memories, new love and new starts? I didn’t know these answers because the pain was too suffocating, the only thing I knew was they will always be under the surface lingering. He had scars too, from his sins. There is nothing that can cover them, they were too deep, too ugly, too dark and they marked us both forever.
I am rating this book 3 and a half purely for the entertainment factor. For me, it was a highly enjoyable and crazy read, if a bit OTT and full of plot-holes.
Melody is a college student, she is feeling lonely having fled the nest of her loving home but things change when one day she returns home to find her parents brutally murdered.
Ryan is the boy who is labelled a ‘freak’ that she takes upon herself to befriend and Blake is his big brother who she hates upon first sight due to his rude manner. What she doesn’t know is that Blake is not only a Police Detective but a Contract Killer on the side.
Now, it’s best I don’t go into the plot too much because this really is a story that needs to take you by surprise. The prologue was fantastic, it drew me in and I was excited for a dark read that I was sure to follow. Don’t get me wrong, it definitely wasn’t a fluffy read but I don’t think it was particularly dark either, a bit depraved maybe and a bit sick and twisted.
As much as I enjoyed reading this, the things that bothered me were:-
– Instalove-ish – One minute she hates him because he is a rude oaf, and he hates her because she’ s making him ‘feel’ and the next they are a couple. I needed more build up if I’m honest.
– Melody had a golden Vagina (oh and the word vagina was used once to describe her pussy, please authors, don’t do this), 4 men had a thing for her in this book.
– The writing was a bit sluggish at times, over descriptive sentences and sentences that didn’t flow right. I’m not an expert writer but I am an expert reader and sometimes things didn’t sound right in my head.
Other than that though, I have to say this was a great idea for a story and I will definitely be reading the next book to see if ‘he’ can redeem himself. I highly doubt it though.
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